An answer, and a question.

” I’ve been many places
I’ve travelled ’round the world
Always on the search for something new
But what does it matter
When all the roads I’ve crossed
Always seem to lead back to you…”

So, I was really interested in the Quote Challenge that Sarah has started on her blog, but the starting quote is this: “Carl Moustakas said…Accept everything about yourself — I mean everything. You are you and that is the beginning and the end — no apologies, no regrets.”
While that is an interesting thought, it is so far removed from my feelings that there is no way I could have anything to say. I’m still at the point in my development where I am unable to accept everything about myself. There are things I desperately want to change, things that I will change. Things I want to learn, and do. To me that quote kind of seems…..almost like it’s urging people to give up, to quit trying. If one accepts everything about one’s self, what motivation is there to change? To grow? If there is no beginning or no end, what is the point of any kind of journey?

Damn, I guess I did have something to say about it after all.

In other news I still have some final emails to write as a follow up to Samhain, but I’ll do that this weekend, when I have some time to spend some time with them. Next Tuesday will be the business meeting where James and I have to turn in all the receipts, and I think we will actually make some money off the event. Not sure how much yet, but I’ll be happy as long as we don’t lose any.
The last few days I’ve been spending a lot of time reading the collected on-line writings of AElflaed of Duckford and I have to say I’ve really enjoyed them. The old issues of the newsletter Thinkwell, all of which were written in the early nineties are interesting, and in many cases thought provoking, as are the other articles she’s posted to the web. I can’t say I agree with everything she says, but all of her articles have made me think. That is always a good thing.
One of the most thought provoking things I’ve come across in her writings is a quote that was sent to her in response to the question, “Why do you still play in the SCA”? The discussion had apparently come about due to the fact that she had had several conversations where people were complaining about various aspects of the Society, so, she had asked that question and published the responses. This one expressed what I feel better than anything I could have written myself; “I look at my own motives for continuing membership and find some interesting things. It comes down to basic Campbellian-Jungian concepts of the need for myth, ritual, community and tribe, and ideals independent of oneself.” So, that’s what I get from the Society. Well, part of what I get, there is more, but it’s an interesting question that I’ll now throw out to those of you that read this that are active in the Society. What do you get out of it that makes it worth putting up with all the unpleasant parts? I look forward to hearing (ok, reading) your thoughts.

Cormac