Going Public

We are now 13 days into the new year, and I feel it is time to share a couple of the projects I’m working on; some goals I am working towards. I won’t call them New Years Resolutions for two reasons:
1. We all know that New Years Resolutions almost always fail. They are almost always forgotten by February 1, if not not early in the year.
2. I actually started working on them well before the start of the new year. Specifically I started on December 19, 2010. Yeah, I started on my birthday. It seamed as good a day as any, and if you think about it, a person’s birthday is a the beginning of a new year too. The new year for that person.

So, I started a diet on December 20, 2010.

Actually, a more accurate statement would be “I started thinking about dieting on December 20, 2010. I had a rather vague goal: I wanted to lose 200 pounds, and I wanted to lose a minimum of 20 inches off my waist. I new what I wanted, but I didn’t know exactly how to get there.

I did start trying to cut down on the amount of food I ate,, and more importantly I started actually thinking about what and when I was eating.

Now, I should recount that I’ve been fat for a very long time. I’ve dieted before, and I’ve lost a great deal of weight before. I’ve never kept it off before. This time, I am determined things will be different. I’m determined to lose the weight, and I am determined to keep it off.
This time I’m not trying to impress anyone; I just want to get healthy. I’m  not under the impression that I’ll be happier if I’m thinner. I’m not under the impression that my life will be better if I am thinner; I actually have a petty good life, and I’m happier than I have been in years.

In addition, this time, I am not going to pursue any kind of “fad” diet plan, nor am I going to limit myself to an unrealistic time frame. I want to lose 200 pounds, and I’m allowing myself 2 years to get that done.
At first I didn’t have a specific plan I was going to follow, but after talking to some relatives I have decided to follow the “Eat Clean Diet”. I’m still studying the plan, but I like what I have read so far. I will have to make a lot of changes in the way I eat but I’m not worried about that. I’ve faced bigger challenges in my time, and I finally think I’m at a place where I can tackle this challenge.

In the last couple of weeks I have done a lot of research on how to succeed in weight loss goals; how to succeed with any goal, really, and all of the articles, and blogs I’ve read have one piece of advice in common; “Share your goals”. So, that is what I’m doing here. I’ll be posting my progress here. I’ll be talking about the journey a lot. I’m going public, in other words.

Weigh in: January 11, 2011: 417 pounds.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

I find myself in an exceptionally odd mood this evening. I got some news today that should have me in a great mood, but for some reason I’m not feeling it. I can’t find enjoyment in any of my regular activities. I logged into my game for the first time in three days and couldn’t maintain an interest for more than 15 minutes. I tried working on the various jewelry projects I have going, and again, I just couldn’t maintain an interest for more than 15 minutes or so. Finally, I tried my old standby, reading, and after another fifteen minutes or so my mind was veering off in several different directions. Even reading on my Kindle (quite possibly the greatest Christmas gift I have ever received) I couldn’t concentrate.

I want to spend. I want to engage in retail therapy. I want to buy that personal wifi hot-spot gadget I’ve been looking at for several months. I want to buy a high quality pocket knife. While I’m at it I want to buy a new computer, ten new pairs of socks, two pairs of sweat pants and two sweatshirts.

Yeah, I want to spend, but right now I don’t feel that I can. Not yet, anyway. You see, all the things I said I want to spend on are things I *want*, but there are some things I need.

For instance I need to reserve the room for next weekend. I also need to buy some new tires for Bertha. In fact I need to make sure that Bertha is not going to go titties up on me again. Gods, I hate temptations.

Perhaps most importantly I need to avoid spending in order to build my sense of fiscal self confidence. I need to build my feelings of responsibility.

Sometimes I truly wish that the things I need to do were the things I want to do.

October 7, 2010: The Turtle Moves: Moves the Disk World.

It is time to visit Cormac’s Library. I do so love to read and have loved to do so since Mrs. Kokendorfer taught me how in the first grade. In the far to many years since, I’ve read voraciously, in all genres except romance. Just never got into romance much.

Roughly 15 years ago my friend Lee introduced me to the works of Terry Pratchett. I don’t think I’ve thanked him enough for that. In the years since I have read all of Sir Terry’s works many times, and each time I’ve gained something new fro the experience.

Pratchett writes, mostly , in the fantasy genre, and unlike most fantasy writers, he write truly funny, and thought provoking satire. It takes great skill as a writer to make someone not merely smile, but to laugh outloud, and Pratchett has that talent in spades.

Most of his work is set on the Disk World. This is a place where magic is real; you must accept that as a given. Unlike writers like say Robert Jordan, Pratchett doesn’t go to a lot of effort to explain the magic, it just is. Over the course of 38 novels, Terry has fully developed this world into a truly interesting and unique place.

The Disk is a flat world, not a sphere, It rides on the back of four giant elephants, who in turn stand on the back of the Great A’Tuin, the celestial space turtle, who swims through space toward some unknown point and unknown time. Can you see why magic has to exist on such a world?

There are four main sets of stories in Pratchett’s work: The Wizards of Unseen University, The City Watch of Ankh Morpork, the Witches of Lancre, and DEATH and other anthromorphications. In the last eight years he has also started another series of Ankh Morpork stories featuring a reformed con-man named Moist Von Lipwig, and a second set of witch novels based on Tiffany Aching. While each book can be read as a stand alone novel, if they are read in order the experience is much richer.

Over the next few weeks I’ll examine the individual books in the Disk World Cannon, starting with my personal favorite set of characters, the City Watch of Ankh Morpork. Next week we will take a look at “Guards Guards”.


It’s Thursday, and I feel fine. I’m going to get to see my Mom and sister and this weekend. I’ve got Mom’s mother’sday/birthday present done. I’ve still not got my truck fixed, but that should be done by the end of the month. I’m halfway done with the new Harry Dresden book and it’s is  quite possibly the best one of the series so far. Next week I’ll get to see a couple hundred of my friends at Crown List. I’ve had a couple of productive days at work. In the words of Joe Walsh, recently, “Life’s been good”.